Thursday, February 13, 2014

Me, myself and I

In this increasingly populated society, in which we have to act in several roles and serve countless functions, we add on many personalities on top of our initially acquired self. It could possibly be due to the overwhelming solitude that some may have to face these days, with a lack of intimate human relation due to the onset of technology as well as the general untrusting attitude we've learnt to don in society.
I see many people on Facebook and other such mediums declaring that they are weird because they converse to their "other selves" as we can call them. Some actually take to naming their "other selves" in a rather affectionate manner. Others find it weird, claiming that they do not have an "other self". Yes, I utilize the word "claim" because I believe that we all have "other selves", but what matters is the extent as to which we are conscious of it. The general gut feeling, the sixth sense that we commonly speak of, are most commonly contributed to the subconscious self which humans have not fully explored despite much advancement in other fields of study. The potential of an "other self" would thus then help us much in our lives; and being closer to the entirety of our being and construct, humans may actually thus appreciate nature better. Or maybe, we require this subduing of our natural instincts or innate selves, so that we can continue on with our synthetic lives without further conflict. This, we can never assume.
Aforementioned was the "other self" that comes with birth but is not usually uncovered. Another type perhaps, would be one which is created by people throughout the course of their experiments in life. This is due to an adaptive mechanism, such as coping with lonliness. Others utilize an "other self" as an outlet for their vivid imagination. We're not concerned with the purpose, but with the fact that the individual must be constantly conscious of the existence of a purpose, such that the "other self" does not take control of one's original and manifest in an undesirable way.
In a way, we could suppose that people who are great in empathising have a chameleon-like "other self", in which it shape-shifts to better understand their counterparts better, as well as have contact with the full range of humanly documented emotions to fulfill a greater spiritual need.
The above is entirely theoretical, and may be subjective as it is entirely seen through my window of vision.
While introspecting, I found that I may have many "other selves", which I would not term as "schizophrenia" due to the connotations of the word.
If you would permit me to do a brief summary of my "selves":

Person 1: the most original self (years 1-4).
Dependent. Playful. Imaginative. Lazy. A little morbid. Inquisitive. Slightly weak and helpless. Capable of showing full range of emotion.
There is person 1.1 which is the matured self of person 1.
Person 2: The cynic and realist
100% pessimistic. Extremist. Hates all weakness. Hates person 1 for its weakness. Also a perfectionist and martyr. Incites myself to harm myself when it feels that I'm not up to standard or worthless. Created by the morbid portion of person 1, and other persons who confided much negative thoughts to me
Person 3: the omnipresent one
The self that has the gut feeling, is the know-it-all person, but offers no help in decision. It usually goes "you know this is going nowhere but you have to serve your purpose and character in life" or sniggers when person 1 and 2 are in conflict. Comes out only occasionally and can never be controlled.
Person 4: the numbed self
The self where I'll feel extremely happy/ numb and productive, because I've spent too much effort subduing person 1's emotions over the years, such that it has shapened into this numbing presence whereby I do not know myself any longer. Person 4 appears after an emotional breakdown or bfore a burnt out.
Person 5: the cold robot
The one that sees things for what they are without any censorship. Void of emotions, and basically going through the flow of any conversation by technically analysing what has to be said and says it. Reserved and untrusting.

Each person that I've described have overall characteristics that overlap, such as a general crazy aspect to it, bluntness and direct speech. I guess while such kind of introspection may be time-consuming, it would be essential in partaking in such as act to cut down the chances of a possible malfunction of personalities in time to come.
-loneshadows
Writing in person 1,2,5

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