Sigh

Havent posted in a while...
I don't know what to post... how about I post a list of stuff I hate?
1) fake things/ppl
2) orders
3) waiting for replies...
4) reminding people stuff for the longest time
5) ppl acting like they have a life and dun bother with anything else. especially if i end up having no life
6) ppl scolding others with no reason to
7) falling sick
8) ppl who don't listen and just keep rambling on about what they think is right.
9) reading books that don't interest me within the first chapter
10) opera sounding music

In any case, I try to avoid doing that to other ppl. I may not have been successful, but at least I do know I'm not fake. Actually my motto is do unto others as you would have others do unto you. But it doesnt seem to work at all. No not at all.  The more you compromise, the worst it is. And the funniest thing is when I tell a bully about the happenings of what another person did to me, it feels indignant. I keep telling myself stuff like, at least they are working hard, at least they are listening, at least he teaches me stuff. And I go about doing stuff they want me to do. But at the end of the day, they do not reciprocate. Why??
The only thing I can do now, is be like last time. Don't voice out about my emotions, jut hide it. My parents think I'm becoming rebellious. I have to hide my emotions better, be less vocal, and compromise more. Logic over emotion. when can i master it?
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