Geez

Havent posted in a while... mostly cos my arm was injured and painful and i was keeping it from my parents and bro, so didnt wanna post and risk letting them see... seesh. now they know. things are going downhill...just went for a physio, and doc asked me to rest for 2 wks. 2 more wks and i'll have less than 10 wks to NSCC. gosh. i must go for evry trng after that...
Geez, push ups not in proper form, pull ups no control, running and jumping jacks hurt. =( I'm the lousiest in the team now. K4 dreams are gone... totally. At least i can paddle, i still can paddle... Maybe i wont recover?? just get used to the pain...
I totally sucked at canoe marathon. who the hell gives up halfway?? if only i cld push through the pain, i wld have continued. coach and ms ng wouldnt be worried. i wldnt get stopped. i cld finish the race. ms tan still got me to debrief bout my race... i was so ashamed that i cldnt even finish the race. the juniors even finished it. and ms tan knew everything from my injury to fever... wow.
no pull ups, push ups...  I did push ups on wednesday land... while we got punished... i feel so left out and picked on whenever someone tells me to do crunches. its like im on a lower level than them all. so the push ups... were lousy. painful,but not as pain as crunches.=) i think... i thought ms ng didnt see me doing... why does she always manage to catch me doing push ups and stuff and running?
I wanna go for the thurs timetrial, but wishing doesnt help. guess i shall apply the cream, finish the painkillers, do physio, ice it, and try not to exert it (i still wanna go for land!! cant be detached from the team forever...)
One thing i've certainly learned is that whenever i feel its really painful, which is when i just hope someone tears my arm off, if i keep going, i'll get used to it,but more pain, if i stop, it will feel less pain... but once it feels less pain, i'll go mad at myself for stopping, and go hard, and it will be more painful than ever. im just that weird...
Just like how Joey keeps pestering Tammy and make her feel bad, Claire keeps asking me if im going for trng. I'll try not to go mad.... cos I really feel like I shld just go for trng. Its just pain. nothing will happen. deal with it. GO. but then i think bout the pain, and think bout what coach said for the longest time "last time i had the pain in my hands, and i had to rest for 6 weeks 3 times". and i realised i can control the pain by controlling my breathing... but the pain may control my breathing and make me breathless too... double edged sword.
All for our K2. 500m should at least get 2.15 maybe?? I hope... We nvr did a 1000m bfore.
Our K2 is just fated to be together... Both injured... =) but we both want to paddle as much

Next goal: Go for thurs timetrial!!!

Now about school work...
I got chinese to do... and math hw set 3 which i cant do now. cos of brilliant me who left the txtbk in the school locker. at least i can relax now eh? xD nope...
GOTTA THINK BOUT RICHARD RICH. =( shouldnt have chosen this case... its hard. we got tricked by julia and janice into taking a hard case.
gosh im like doing the whole case... keith is good at expanding and finding clues... i guess i'll ask him to do that...
The lawyer was freaky!! yesh maintain eye contact... i realised i cant... i feel hypnotised or something whenever i stare at someone for too long... geez. i'll get scared... anyway he said something that i will remember. there is a fine line between confidence and arrogance. be confident. i've nvr come across as arrogant. once u r arrogant, ppl will cease to listen to you, even though you may have the best points
true =)=)

long post FTW!!
Michelle
Michy
Mochii

KEITH KWAN!! now coach calls me mochii too =(