Hideout

Whooops so many posts today. Finally wrote all that I wanted to be written.
Um school holidays are here and I've lots to do. Math, econs essay... projects. And litwing ugh I need to write more.
On another note, I really like this place, where I can steal some time off from the usual buzz of life.
Lying down on the cold concrete floor at the core foundation of the building, looking at the sky through the shade of trees always make me feel calm. The rays of light that steal through the leaves dazzle the onlooker in such a dreamy manner. And the house opposite will busy itself with man-made chores. Occasionally,  the grounds may be covered with the cigarette ash of a secretive cleaner in the compound. And a bird may come along and make merry music.
I went with vivianne to this place two days ago... the grass patch which used to be long and unkept, was now scorched and in all essence, dead. There was a fried bird in an awkward position melted into the floor. We found webs of an unknown substance made by an unknown creature, tying stubborn blades of grass. What for? To unite them in this heat? To keep them together to triumph this dry spell.
The dog I used to find did not know me anymore. Age had transformed its eyes into something else.
While everything that used to be is not as it was anymore,  why do I seek solace at this place? The wind ruffling the trees. The hard floor. The empty sky. Occasional lost clouds.
Maybe I just like quiet. And I prefer a location that is seemingly attached to the world that I'm in, yet in another realm altogether.
因为大自然让我感觉到前所未有的安全感。我不必伪装,我可以哭泣,可以疯狂。因为在大自然里,世界是绝对的残酷。死是死,活是活。多少人在社会里存在与一种生不如死的状态中。我能这么想,是因为单纯? 不知道大自然的恐怖? 应该是吧。
我想,我会喜欢去那,因为那是一种逃避。我会想象风声说:"没关系,我一直都在。" 我会幻想一个人,能够像我写的74520的主角一样静静的呵护这受伤的人, 不必多说话就能了解彼此。我会在我所谓的世外桃源胡思乱想, 忘掉所有烦恼,暂时做回真正的自己。
所以我会想念这个地方。
Time to sleep.
Much work to be done.
-mich