Time panic

Ugh so much to work on.
Hmph just got home. Need to work on gp now.
"Sao yan" and I got pulled up to moderate class discussion for AQ today.
I suck as a teacher. As usual.
I can't stand talking to a class. I don't mind talking to a wall though. I've done that all my life. When I was younger and whacked by my bro my maid would just shove me into the room and lock it. Then I would talk and talk to myself.
Crazy.
I'm gonna fail prelims urgh. Waiting for com to load bfore I start work.
:( got rejected for blood donation again.
as you can see, my thots are rather fragmented when tired.
Today vivianne scolded me for being stupid. Well I guess I always do things for others at the expense of myself.
On another note, I find it vry disturbing during lit lesson to feel like I'm under scrutiny. But really, she can analyse poems but not people.  So no need to worry. I just need the vocab and form of the essay. And refresh my memory.  Started alrdy, but tiredd.
Math was angst. Sigh. Not like the class will respond. Pointless. 要骂就早点骂。现在太迟了。更何况, 骂了没效果, 也只是伤身体。 chin was rather freaked out I think. I guess I was a little irritated at the shouting (aversion to any raised voices and quarrels because.). 但还是有些。。。愧疚? 当他说"我能帮你们的我都做了" 还有什么 "想要请教的话就主动找我。不然一直催你们我很累"。就这两句。
没什么我只是不忍心看到一个人付出那么多, 但一点回应都没有。
咳。
嗯.....不知道我几个朋友也许因为些小事而闹翻了。没事吧。也就这样。各人有各人的个性哦。
Came home and swept the floor full of dead skin. Bro came to me and said "get out. Thank you for leaving me alone". And I quickly left in case he punches anything (cupboard, whatever.... and maybe me).
咳.
我坚持.
-恩