See you in 2016 =)

Byeee 29th Feb!
Hmphh. I haven't posted for ages.
What have I been doing? Making myself tired. That's all. Andd Monday was horrible. But I'm happy that I tried my best to live through Tuesday and today. Bye track meet 2012. and my failures. getting last for 200m D;
Actually I find myself wishing that I would be so tired I could sleep for the rest of my life. But I do realize it sounds like death in a certain way... Never waking up again... Let's push this thought out of my head.
Homework's piling up... And I don't think I should be doing it when my brain's not functioning.
There's something bothering me... I guess it's just flying glasses. I've suddenly become more scared of her. But of  course, she doesn't know she has a hold over me. Treated coach to dinner last sat. He was interrogating me of my condition. I didn't wanna tell him... And phew, Keith told him some, but not all. Which is quite rare, cos he's memory is usually superb 0-0 Anyway, back to flying glasses. There's just a sentence that she said that has been stuck in my head... My memory usually fails, but this just keeps playing like a broken record when I see her. She said something to the effect of why are you running away from me. And if you have any problems, you can approach me. If you can't even approach me, I've failed my duty as a teacher.
Something like that. I don't recall the exact words. '~' Whenever I see her, I feel scared and happy. Happy because she's one of those whom I respect and care about. And scared, because if she actually asks about how I feel and anything... I will tell her the truth. Maybe I would be unwilling at first, but I know I'll just break under the pressure of the constant reminder of what she said. I wouldn't be able to say "I'm okay" for very long .. Just because of those few words. it's the "failed my duty" part that keeps haunting me... o.0 she's good with words, I tell you. Freakishly good. Oh well it's a great thing that she's daoing me now. Giving a stone cold look when I'm like an idiot not knowing whether to greet her or not. She's either too busy, or she just hates me. And I don't blame her for it. Cos I'm quite an annoying idiot.
Track meets yesterday made me high. Today, I was last for 200m. And then I felt super cold. I wonder why. So I fell asleep and then ran for 400m and felt so slow. After that I was dizzy and cold. So I kept jogging to keep warm. And played soccer with jessie. Btw... I do not wanna be included in their team! I'm just doing a favor for jessie. Made that super clear to the teacher. SO I HOPE HE DOES NOT MAKE ME JOIN. I wanna go back to canoeing.
I don't know anymore. I have to admit it. I don't know what I'm doing. I'm just doing it for the sake of it.
Great job flying glasses. you made me put my pride down and admit something.
Would I take this post down? Not like anyone comes here...
well then. the end.